I was drafting my new post today and decided to write this message first. The next post took a very long time to write. Almost two weeks. Life is a bit chaotic right now with work and school. My social life is at a stand-still as I am trying to figure out the next step and chapter of my life.
Understand that exhaustion is real!! I once said that I thought that exhaustion was something that only celebrities were hospitalized for. I can honestly see how someone could work themselves into the ground and end up with literally no strength at all. I found this out the hardest way.
No details in this post. Tonight’s post will have all of the details. But here is a preview..
A few weeks ago, I suffered from Pneumonia. The pneumonia; was a result of me ignoring doctors orders to stay in bed after getting bronchitis, with a mild infection in my lungs. I was at work one day unable to breathe with my back aching. That weekend, I still managed to go to Medieval Times because I had never gone and wanted to experience it. I had so much fun. But that night, I felt like horse shit. My breathing, my voice, my body was shot. I ended up in the emergency room getting shots of cortisone and oxygen… The message was clear. I needed to rest.
When your body is worn out, your body sends you signals. It lets you know that it needs to rest. I had no choice to stay in bed and take steroids and antibiotics. The steroids and bed rest made me gain 10 pounds. When I returned to work, I was so embarrassed to return a few pounds heavier. I went back into my shell, I covered up the weight gain by adding more layers to my clothing. I contoured my face so that it looked smaller. Nothing worked. I still knew that I was fatter and so did my co-workers.
“You gained weight!”
These comments made my eyes roll. Only two women in my department had something nice to say. “You look healthier, some people aren’t meant to be thin.”
I am still writing. I am still working and I am still in school. But I needed a small break.
To be continued…… Later