“Don’t let them see u sweat”
That’s what everyone keeps saying
But my problem is that I have become too popular too fast
And I don’t know how it happened
Everyone’s perception of me
Is changing how I really feel about myself.
And every heartbreak is everyones business.
And I can’t find time to process on my own sickness
Everyone is talking about which post is about him.
seeking. tryna find out if I’m alone.
But if it were up to my friends.
They would delete this damn account.
Because the public opinion is what matters.
And it seems my mind has checked out.
So I will admit I still love him
And if he decided to love me again.
I wouldn’t take him back because I’m afraid of going thru this again
And feeling so depressed that it could kill me.
I sing the same songs
I look at all the pictures.
Crying all the time
And filling days with hopeless thoughts and dreams
That one day he’d pay attention and realize that perfect is not what it seems
‘Cause it’s the seeing that’s deceiving.
Your perfect isn’t perfect
But love is all you have
And I love you
And what happens when
Your dreams are all you can believe
It would be a wonder to live in your own creation
And I realize that’s the same shit that receives too many likes.
And on the inside.
I really wanna die.
But how do I say that without getting people thinking I’m a mental issue!
I’m not crazy, my heart is broken
He took the last of my emotions
With a status message and a photo.
And yet I have to stay silent
Every status, every note
Every picture is monitored
Everyone is waiting for me to admit that I am dying inside
Everyone wants to know how I feel
Everyone wants to know what I’m up to
What’s on my mind
My heartache is interesting to everyone
And my handlers are making sure
I never own up to my own downward spiral
And there’s a storm that’s raging inside of me
There’s too much I need to say.
But instead I will just post.
And some ignorant asshole will end up liking it..
Once again making me feel